lakshya... still searching

There are good films... there are excellent films and there are the pathetic ones. Along with these, there are those which leave you in awe of them. These are the ones that wont get boring even after seeing them over and over again, those on whose DvD you wont think twice before spending the mandatory 500-600 bucks and those that don't fail to leave you with goosebumps even if you see them twice in a row. In my list of 'super movies', among numerous firangi flicks, one of them is Lakshya. 15 and watching a movie alone, for the first time, 19th June 2004 has became concrete memory strand.

I always get influenced by movies. The influence can vary from various levels of good to downright useless. With Lakshya, it was a completely different feeling. I was amazed (mouth-open amazed) through out the movie. The amazement wasn't only because of the acting, story, script etc... but also because of the theme and everything about it. I loved the movie and since the first time I saw it, it has left an undying impression. The movie was 'super' on a number of aspects... beginning from the acting to the direction, the story, the script etc and not ending... I have to mention here that I'm hardly a critic when it comes to movies 'cause I end up liking every movie that I see. But here I'm assured because with Lakshya, it was and still seems to be a general consensus. I'm yet to come across someone who didn't like the movie. Along with the various aspects that I loved the movie for, the most important one why I've started liking it even more now, is because I completely relate to what Karan (Hrithik Roshan) faced. The recurrences of the word 'lakshya' through out the first half and Karan's failure to find one, keeps reminding me where I'm right now. I find myself in Karan's place in all the situations, obviously sans the car he drives, the super-cute girl-friend that he has and obviously the part where he is a richy-rich kid. I'm sure, I am just one of the millions who saw himself in the movie in Karan's shoes, but then, its my blog and I'm writing about it, so I won't refrain from being self-centric.

If you're in your last year of graduation and if you don't have an answer to the question "So, whats the plan now?" or "What are you going to do after TY?", either isolate yourself from all sorts of socialites or find an answer quickly. Its the only question I get from everyone I meet and the answer "I've kept my options open" loses its charm beyond a point. I don't know how important is lakshya in one's life, but I do know that it has its implications. Being focused per say, is extremely necessary I assume, but what if you're not? I'm yet to feel the heat and excitement lakshya carries 'cause I'm still searching for mine. Nobody likes a question mark looming over them, but then the question mark shouldn't be answered just because you want it to go away. I believe people work the best when they're under pressure, at least I know I do and thats where I am right now. Under pressure from my family, from friends and from every other person who looks at me and tries to imagine me 5 years beyond today. Call it an excuse, call it running away, I don't want to settle on a lakshya just because I need one to answer people.

The quest for my lakshya is going on, without a doubt. Wherever I go, whomever I meet, the question mark doesn't take a break, its there and I'll keep it there till I find the most apt answer to it. TY will end in another 8 months and as one of my professor describes it "its a big bad world out there, people are waiting to kick you on your butts". The movie's punch lines says "It took him 25 years and 18000 feet to find himself". Knowing that a future in the Army is not really in bounds and that waiting till 25 years is not feasible and also that 18000 feet wont make any difference to my plans, I really hope to settle on my lakshya soon enough.